Now or in 10 years...?

There comes a time in ones life, a tipping point you can say.  Where you don't want to live like anyone, or be anyone different.  You want to be you.  Do what you love and be accepted.  This seems so petty.  So simple and easy.  Tho, it is one of the most trying, life-changing seasons of life.  Those friends that always seemed so close are all of the sudden in shock because you're separating from them.  No longer wanting a 'part of the crew' name tag.

Life spins wildly.

You hold onto whatever is around, finding the stable, accepting relationships in your life to be your rocks and altar.  You begin to feel courage.  Make more and more changes in your life.  The air is fresher now.  A crisp, mountain morning sensation.

You notice the transition in yourself.  A person who loves to make others happy no matter what.  Now, becoming honest with yourself.  A 'true to thy self' character.  Some don't like this.  They liked you more when you always sacrificed yourself.  Not that life isn't good when others are happy.  It's just you know the bliss it is when you are you, in your element, surrounded by those who love to live, love to laugh and love to see you as who you are meant to be.....Who you aspire to be.

This transition, that you feel and are living, isn't a 'flip of a switch' kind of change.  It's something to be endured.  You spin.  You're thrown upside down.  Tossed sideways.  Slammed backwards.  Only to get up and be pushed down again by some random Thursday morning decision.  It's then, when you realize that you have the power to stay happy and stay you through all, does it become a fun challenge.  It's then when you start to move forward.  One-step-at-a-time.

The beauty of all starts to glisten.  And the inner peace and soothed soul you now have, is smiling.  Happy to be 'feeling, loving, laughing' in the place that is absolutely perfect.  Whether that place is a physical or figuratively found in your thoughts.  It's then you notice life isn't about the easy.

Life.  Character, is defined during trying, changing, straining, unknown moments.  Accept them with open arms.  Embrace it, as you never know what road you might be standing on in 10 years, reflecting on that exact situation and say 'thanks' because of that, I AM HERE NOW.